Dear Life…

22 09 2010

Dear Life,

As I walk slowly, roaming in  the wheel of time, the crystal of hope starts to falling apart.

I paused , and I look back, to see the bitter sweet past behind my back.

Strangely but happily i find no remorse and no regret…no will to coming back.

As  I sink under the burden of time , the sweet memories emerge and stranded me  away.

It gaves me the sweetest sensation about you Life, so untrue , so unreal , so un-you.

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Socialize Hurts

12 09 2010

Socialize Hurts , it Hurts ..it Hurts …it Hurts!!!

God I hate it so much. Meeting new people is killing me. Pretend that i’m interesting what they think, what they do , what they said …please… I don’t even know you ( How can i  be  interesting in things you do..if  I DON’T KNOW  WHO THE HELL ARE YOU !!!!)

But nothing beats of the psychological painfully in socialize with an acquaintance . You know an acquaintance, someone that you basically meets ( once in a while )  just because you happen to be in the same neighborhood , or work environment or school habituation..whatever. But all u know about him or her is their names ( and sometimes you even forgot about this ),

And suddenly , BOommm , there they are , speaks to  you like an old friend , and the only things that cross in your mind is Oh My GOd ..OhMY God .. what is this freaking person name.

But sometimes, if you get lucky, i mean really lucky , this excruciating painfull process will get you a friend that eventually become your best friends and maybe more …, he or she will be there comforting you for your  next  new painfully episode of socialize gathering.

The image taken from : gkwan





Lunacrazy

11 09 2010

September 11, 2010

As i gazed to the empty night, recording all the things that have pass by recently.

It occurred to me that there is some news and some  bullshit  that i like to share on my blog.

One : My friends is finally going to get married before the end of this year.

Two: I’m finally going to go home, three months from now.

Three: There is a big probability that the world going to end soon.

Four: I’m still freaking-ly don’t know  what im going to do a year from now.

Five : I still believe that soul mate does exist , and hopefully before the world end , I’m going to find one.

Six: I’m getting more bitter and bitter everyday,

Seven: Is it possible for someone to just evaporate and disappear ?

Eight: It’s 2 AM in the morning, I’m tired , sleepy , and even tough  i know is not healthy to write a blog in this condition , I ‘m still writing it.

Nine: ……..

Ten : It’s doesn’t matter anymore.





Road Trip To Pachuca

28 08 2010

So about four weeks ago, me , and three of my friends having a road trip to Pachuca. With car is just 2 hours away  from Puebla to Pachuca , but wow the nature its so beautifull there, but don’t take my words on it , just look at the picture below :

It’s the  famous Prismas Basalticos (basaltic rock formations).

In area ex-haciendas of   San Miguel Regla .





Like Being Hit By A Bullet – Baek Ji Young

28 08 2010

Yes another melow song from Baek Ji Young :

This song enchanted me , first time i listen  this .. i feel like , you know what … i know how it’s feel ,

Broken heart is just a phase , almost everybody knows how it’s feels , it’s not a big deal but it’s also  not a small matters , and this song picture it perfectly . Enjoy!





Sarang An He

28 08 2010

Berhubung lagi mood buat yang melow –  melow akhir – akhir ini :

Ini sebenernya lagu lama dari : Baek Ji Young.

Salah satu model video clipnya adalah Jung Da Bin ( yang telah meninggal dunia, it was said that she hang herselft because of  depression )

Korean Lyrics :

Geu ryul lyuh goh geu rae ssuh
Doh rah gah ryuh goh
Nuh eh chah gah oom ehn geu rae dah
Ee yoo ee ssuht duhn guh yah

Nah reul mahn ji neun
Nuh eh sohn gil uhb suh jin
Ee jeh yah ggae daht geh dweh yuh suh
Nae mahm dduh nah gahn guh seul

Suhl mah ha neun
Geu ruhn mi ryuhn ddae moon eh
Geu rae doh
Nah neun nah reul wi roh hae
Ee jeh ee ruh neun nae gah
Duh gah yuh wuh
Ee jeh rah doh nuhl ji ool guh yah
Gi uhk eh moh doo reul

Ee jeh dah shi sah rang ahn hae
Mahl hah neun nahn
Nuh wah gah teun sah rahm
Dah shi mahn nahl soo gah uhb suh suh
Sah rang hahl soo uhb suh suh

Bah bo chuh ruhm sah rang ahn hae
Mahl hah neun nuhl sah rang han dah
Nah reul eet gil bah rae
Nah reul ji wuh jyoh

Bah bo chuh ruhm mohl lah ssuh
Nuh eh doo sah ram
Ah jik gi yuk hal lyuh duhn geu guhn
Geu rae dah yok shim ee yah

Dah jeem haet guhn mahn
Mae il ah chim noon eul dduh
Ji nah gahn nuh eh geh gi doh hae
Nah reul it ji mahl lah goh

Jeh bahl – ji geum nae gah bah rah neun hah nah
Nae yae gil – nuh moo shwib geh hah ji mah
Cha la ri – nah reul moh reun dah goh mahl hae jwoh

Shi gahn ji nah ahl geh dwel guh yah
Nae sah rang eh ga chi reul

Ee jeh dah shi sah rang ahn hae
Mahl hah neun nahn
Nuh wah gah teun sah rahm
Dah shi mahn nahl soo gah uhb suh suh
Sah rang hahl soo uhb suh suh

Bah bo chuh ruhm sah rang ahn hae
Mahl hah neun nuhl sah rang han dah
Nah reul eet gil bah rae
Nah reul ji wuh jyoh

Nae gah ubt neun
Nae gah ah neen geu jah ri eh
Sah rang chae oo ji mah
Hok shi mahn nahl soo gah eet dah myun
Sah rang hahl soo eet dah myun
Ah peu jah nah
Sah rang hahn nuhl ji kyuh boh myuh
Sah rang hahn dah
Geu mahl hahn mah di reul
Hah ji moht hae suh

English Translations:
I was going to do that
I was going to go back
Yea, your coldness did have a reason

When your touch was gone
I realized that my heart had left

Because of a lingering attachment that asked “what if..”
I comforted myself
Now I am more pitiful for doing this to myself
Now I will really erase you
All the memories too

Now I don’t love you
And myself saying that is the same as you
Because i can’t meet anyone else
Because I can’t love again
Like a fool, I don’t love you
And you who is saying that, are the one I love
I hope you forget me, please erase me

Like a fool I didn’t know
I didn’t know about you two
Trying to remember us–
That was all a part of my greed

Even though I promised myself,
I open my eyes every morning
and pray for you who passed by
for you not to forget me

Please, the one thing I am hoping for right now
Is for you not to speak about me so easily
Instead just say that you don’t know me
You will know after time, about the value of my love

Now I don’t love you
And myself saying that is the same as you
Because i can’t meet anyone else
Because I can’t love again
Like a fool, I don’t love you
And you who is saying that, are the one I love
I hope you forget me, please erase me

The seat without me, the seat that is not me
Don’t fill it with love
If we can meet again
If we can love again
It’ll hurt but I love you
I will watch over you and I love you
Because I couldn’t say these words…

Di video clipnya :

Menceritakan pasangan kekasih ( yang kebetulan gay 😀 )

Mereka berkeliling sambil memfoto hal-hal yang mereka anggap menarik.

Ternyata di akhir cerita yang mereka foto adalah hal -hal yang melengkapi satu sama lain,

seperti foto roda untuk melengkapi sepeda , foto murid – murid untuk melengkapi kelas, foto lumba -lumba untuk melengkapi laut, foto  jarum jam untuk  melengkapi jam ,

Namun mereka tidak dapat melakukan apapun untuk melengkapi perasaan mereka,

Karena dunia mengijinkan banyak hal untuk melengkapi satu sama lain, namun tidak pasangan gay.

Di akhir video mereka sampai di tepian dunia , yang melambangkan akhir hubungan mereka, mereka tidak bisa berjalan lagi, atau tidak ada jalan lain lagi, dan hanya bisa berpelukan dan menangis.

Sarang An He : I WON’T LOVE …





Why I don’t Drink..

31 07 2010

Mexican have a rich culture. Not only their pyramids and civilization history is amazing, but they have …..Tequila and  cheap beer .

Before i go here, my mom , one night call me and make me promise to never ever touch alcohol !! like ever …like if  She  ever found out that I were drunk in HERE or ANY PLACES , I  don’t NEED to bother to go home  😀

So every time i was invited to a party , karaoke , cantineera ( kinda like a bar but not really ) , all that i order is refresco , that means fanta, cola or pepsi or aqua de naraja ( orange drinks )

As and adult , 27 years old , sitting in a party drinking cola , is a bit “out of places ” in here. And everytime , my college see that , they offer me  to drink , i say no with different silly reasons.

The first time , i said , no , my mom doesn’t like me drinking ( although is honest, is kinda stupid and make them even more passionate to make me drinks )

The second time , i said no , i ‘m driving ( is also stupid because they know i dont have a car )

The third time , i said , no , i don’t drink ( and they answer , what… u dont drink ?? but people drink *lol*)

Mostly , people who sees me not drinking , said that , u must try , u an adult , feel the experience and stuff.

Honestly speaking, even though i never drunk , but i know how it’s taste and i don’t like it.

And turns out , this is what people want to hear–>  no , i don’t drink because i don’t like it .

Like i said before , Mexican have a rich culture, if you don’t  want to do something because u don’t like it and giving a straight answer for it , they understand  it ,

To whom who don’t understand this , well … its’ usually comes from a certain people who their opinion is not my mainly concern ( in short terms , i don’t Freaking Care about it )

You know, it’s amaze me, being here, far from everybody that i know , makes me feel more good about myself , it’s like i finally found myself and like myself, and for once , whatever i do , i do it because  i really want to do it  , and for now  i try to  stop caring for other people minds ,  and start to listen for my own.

Here it goes…

Hi I’m Indah,  currently i don’t date , i don’t drink coffe , I don’t drink alcohol and i like to stay at home  once in a week , not because i don’t enjoy live but because i enjoy being me. And me said, for now, give me time to learn myself.