Insomnia

Lately i have trouble  to sleep. Is not that i can’t sleep at all. But while lying down , i’m trap in such a state.

The state that my brain still  fully aware of my surrounding environment , means i’m not sleep yet, but also too lazy to  get up because my body absolutely tired ,

So I keep closing my eyes, hopefully tired enough to just subconsciously  sleep. Manage to do so in a while, but keep getting up every 15 – 30 minutes , all the suddenly it’s morning already.

When I  get down from my bed, in the morning , my body still so tired , my eyes still so fuzzy and my mind still disoriented. It likes i never sleep at all.

Dear Life…

Dear Life,

As I walk slowly, roaming in  the wheel of time, the crystal of hope starts to falling apart.

I paused , and I look back, to see the bitter sweet past behind my back.

Strangely but happily i find no remorse and no regret…no will to coming back.

As  I sink under the burden of time , the sweet memories emerge and stranded me  away.

It gaves me the sweetest sensation about you Life, so untrue , so unreal , so un-you.

Socialize Hurts

Socialize Hurts , it Hurts ..it Hurts …it Hurts!!!

God I hate it so much. Meeting new people is killing me. Pretend that i’m interesting what they think, what they do , what they said …please… I don’t even know you ( How can i  be  interesting in things you do..if  I DON’T KNOW  WHO THE HELL ARE YOU !!!!)

But nothing beats of the psychological painfully in socialize with an acquaintance . You know an acquaintance, someone that you basically meets ( once in a while )  just because you happen to be in the same neighborhood , or work environment or school habituation..whatever. But all u know about him or her is their names ( and sometimes you even forgot about this ),

And suddenly , BOommm , there they are , speaks to  you like an old friend , and the only things that cross in your mind is Oh My GOd ..OhMY God .. what is this freaking person name.

But sometimes, if you get lucky, i mean really lucky , this excruciating painfull process will get you a friend that eventually become your best friends and maybe more …, he or she will be there comforting you for your  next  new painfully episode of socialize gathering.

The image taken from : gkwan

Lunacrazy

September 11, 2010

As i gazed to the empty night, recording all the things that have pass by recently.

It occurred to me that there is some news and some  bullshit  that i like to share on my blog.

One : My friends is finally going to get married before the end of this year.

Two: I’m finally going to go home, three months from now.

Three: There is a big probability that the world going to end soon.

Four: I’m still freaking-ly don’t know  what im going to do a year from now.

Five : I still believe that soul mate does exist , and hopefully before the world end , I’m going to find one.

Six: I’m getting more bitter and bitter everyday,

Seven: Is it possible for someone to just evaporate and disappear ?

Eight: It’s 2 AM in the morning, I’m tired , sleepy , and even tough  i know is not healthy to write a blog in this condition , I ‘m still writing it.

Nine: ……..

Ten : It’s doesn’t matter anymore.